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Living With The Last Honors Night

May 17, 2018

Jacob fought the angel, to what avail? To bring the frigid, nocturnal image of John Calvin down the ladder to block the channels leading to salvation? To siphon life’s joy into a distillation center where all is reduced to sin? Not even the medieval alchemists were able to achieve such a feat!

Senior Honors Night and the valedictorians hold forth giving meaning to their recent past and hoped for future. Thirty-six of these have marked an equal number of trips around the sun. How do the remembered battles (triumphs and defeats) etch themselves into our ever tattering souls? Do we become One-eyed Jacks in the deck of our time where our worst scars are never on display?

How much of the night do the one-eyed see?  Is their focus so narrow they can find the worm hole into a solitary eternal truth or reality? So are these Jacks as flawed as appearances argue? Perhaps, but perhaps they are the Messiah. Must the chosen ones be sacrificed on the cold shoals of Calvin’s dark coast merely because they sail against the wind and tide

Will this night be a remembered peace or join the flotsam of experiences generated by the typhoons of later life? The sadness and frustration of unrealized hope forming a hard scar never to be separated by storm or port? Pain never eased by time The Healer?

And so we reef the sails for the night.


July 1 Again: For NRB (My Dad)

“Hear that lonesome whippoorwill

He sounds too blue to fly

The midnight train is whining low

I’m so lonesome I could cry”

—-Hank Williams, “I’m So Lonesome I Could Cry”

The Ronin’s Tale: Part 5, Reflection

Now deep in the heart of a lonely kid

Who suffered so much for what he did,

They gave this ploughboy his fortune and fame,

Since that day he ain’t been the same.

See the man with the stage fright

Just standing up there to give it all his might.

And he got caught in the spotlight,

But when we get to the end

He wants to start all over again.

                                 —– Robbie Robertson, Stage Fright

Thinking & Remembering in December

“And now I own

what I desire:

a hole,

a nothing I can fill with anything.

But for a long

time I will leave

it empty

before I make it something

and diminish it. . . .”

—Andrew Hudgins, “After Muscling Through Sharp Greenery”